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新加坡金曲奖2011
别的事就不用说，就说今天最让我感动，最让我心跳加速，还有最让我开心的。
1. 感动：当我发现包子们真的为了我们而来，从头到位都很留意着我们的后脑勺还有言行举动。本来觉得有点失落，但到后来却觉得受宠若惊了。今天真的很感动，我 们怎么那么有福气啊？因为那么感动，刚才才会想要一个一个的拥抱你们，才会好想做cheer。好想征服，好想让自己爬到一个有份量去做一点点小小革命的地 位，我是说音乐。就像Ella在E乐大奖的时候，一句话就把全体艺人拉在一块做一些轻松玩的动作。多好！感动，我感觉我真的能够有朝一日放胆的在那么美丽 又带点有色眼光的舞台前用力的享受台上音乐人的表演，也能够有一天为自己台上的所作所为而感到平静的骄傲。谢谢你们，让我感到无比的快乐和温暖。我真的有 在努力！相信我！
2. 心跳加速：看到Yoga那么自我的表演方式，感觉那种我没办法控制自己身体去摇动的力量。表演完毕，我只想说“不够！不够！拜托再唱！我才刚暖身！”想说 希望多给我几首歌的时间让我有勇气放开一切束缚，一切背负着的惨痛经历，义无反顾的站起来歌颂好的音乐，好的歌手。一切结束，我心还蠢蠢欲动。活着的感觉 很棒。谢谢诚心诚意，完全和自己音乐融为一体的林宥嘉。把你当偶像真他妈的(被爸爸提醒言语要检点，要小心。抱歉啊！一时的激动！）的一点也没错。
3. 最开心： 在一个那么多真心诚意付出的音乐人当中，能入围真的很开心。但我真的没那么…ZEN. 我很在意，我很重视这个一年一度的颁奖典礼。我只希望他们能越做越猛，在一个如此混乱的音乐时代里，一个以金钱为前提的社会里… 坚持一些生意人永远没有办法了解的坚持。音乐本来就是一种固执，一种自私但又跨越一切的享受。这种固执不容以，但今天得到一个朋友的肯定，说她一直都在听 我们的专辑，直到现在…还在听。又因为跟着宥嘉在台下又唱又跳而两三次听到他对我们说“谢谢”觉得…耶。这就是我们搞音乐想要feel到的满足 感。小小的一些举动，让我开心得现在睡不着。
我一点都不觉得自己厉害，也从来不敢多点推销自己或自己得专辑。一直都希望，the music will speak for itself. 但其实，我今天也学到…相信自己做得音乐，认同自己付出的成果，很～重～要～所以，虽然我们的专辑也已经漂浮了一年多的时间，入围三项题名，连上台表 演的机会也没有，我还是想说《人生实验课》这张专辑是我们插班生的血汗。请你一定要听一听。不，请你听了，再听。因为我相信里面的一些小小的感动，你会感 同身受，也和我一样觉得很棒，很不错。
希望越来越多人喜欢我们，喜欢我们的音乐。好让我们可以继续，继续在音乐这条路上打滚滚。
谢谢上帝给予我们音符，赐给我们音乐。真的很感谢你。你是万王之王，最有音乐细胞的也是你！
I Thank You for You.
AND Karen from Jeric Salon! Its been a humbling and amazing experience being sculpted under your magic hands. One of a few stylists who truly make me feel like I’m safe in their hands. I’m no fashionista and can sometimes be difficult to work with because when it comes to fashion, I’m not experimental… But having worked with Karen on three different occasions, all three times I was blind as a bat because I had to keep my specs off while she did her work. Each time I put my glasses back on, I’m amazed, I’m astounded, I’m surprised and I’m confident. Amazed that my hair can go in those directions, astounded with her skills and surprised by the ease at which I accept myself in the mirror hence making me feel confident. Thank you Karen, and especially how in the chaos of the final minutes leading up to the start of the show, you never forgot us 插班生 and kept keep a look out for us and keeping us in mind. Thank you for making us feel at home, at ease and valued. You made our day. 
好奇怪
不喜欢这种累到影响声音的状态，
但又很享受累到撑不住但发觉自己原来还可以继续的力量。
我想再累。再疯狂！
我真的是台上疯，台下静。
好奇怪。
我自己试着在了解自己。
好奇怪。
休息，是为了走更长远的路。
声音，你一定要乖。
古乃！
实现／实验
同学你好。
其实我有很多值得后悔的。为什么说…值得，后悔？
因为，这后悔是我现在很努力想要去追赶之前遗失的每一分，每一秒的源动力。
插班生带着自己专辑去台湾的时候，和很多在音乐领域里打滚了多年的朋友…听了我们的专辑都觉得quality 很好，音乐性很强…过后都会问：“你们会弹乐器吗？”
“哦，会是会…但不堪入耳啦。“
这是我的遗憾。我虽然算是一个late bloomer. 五年前才发现自己原来能够在歌唱这领域里做些什么…但一直就希望有人提拔，有人带领。
没有。
浪费了那么多青春！啊！
所以说，年轻人…不要太自大！不要以为时间还很多！要做的赶紧去做！人生是你的！学到的一些技术，才艺也都是你自己的！没人能拿走！如果觉得自己在某一方面很有天份，努力去着机会把它练成翔龙十八掌！
true story. I think I’d rock on the drums. But my mother never allowed me to go on the drum set unless I wore a skirt. I still got to drum away every week when I had the chance to in church, but I know if I had been more firm and knew better, if I had gone for drum lessons. I might be drumming for someone’s concert now. And that, would be da bomb man.
我的点是。my point is.
要努力，要付出，要相信。
我们不能够和别人比较，或怨家人不提拔我们…我们都是聪明人，要自己走出自己的路。
I don’t think that much, and I never ever plan my blog posts or the words here. That, isn’t always a good thing. As a semi-independent singer, I need to be smart, play the market, know the market, be good with public relations, suck up to the ones who have full pockets, because all these elements have to come together or good music will never happen. That’s the truth.
For every amazing successful voice on the acrylic cover(nowadays, cardboard seems to be the trend.) there is a team of “prostitutes” behind doing everything they can to put this person up there. And i don’t mean this in disrespect. My ex manager used to jokingly tell me all the time “为了你～我要去坐在人家的大腿liao 啦！”and I always respect her for that. Because … 换成是我坐，我想没有人会给我钱做音乐。
幕后团队好重要，风扇们的支持也是。
因为你喜欢，你就会推荐给你的朋友，朋友再推推推推，转转转转。所以再这里我祈祷我们插班生能够继续耕耘出更厉害的我们，风扇们永远青春有活力而且一定要相亲相爱！
很害羞。今天录了这首歌… 献给你们。:) 这首歌的作词作曲人超棒。他就是黄玠….
“Naughty girl 啊～”
Over the past decade, the local television industry seemed to have lost its lustre… the internet came in, there was SCV, and then SCV provided demand television which basically means HK dramas at your fingertips… and then came the Hokkien dramas which took our little island by storm…
It’s been harder and harder to survive in this local television industry and local drama has had a few hits amongst the many as compared to years back when every drama seemed to leave a deep impression in our mind. (To date ”再见萤光蓝“ is still my no.1 and I think i’ve watched it thrice. When it was first aired, and then rushing home at 2.30pm after school to watch afternoon repeat telecasts.)
Fann Wong was my fvourite! I always tell my friends this and they either roll their eyes or exclaim “YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME!!!”
I was part of the FANNATIC fanclub which I know still exists till today! They used to call me up and tell me that I was one of the lucky 50 who had a chance to sit in the front at one of Fann Wong’s meet-and-greet sessions and I’d say I couldn’t go because my mum had such a tight reign on me… if i wanted to go, I’d have to lie. And honestly, I couldn’t lie SKILLFULLY to save a life, so no point trying really.
BUT! Goodness.
Times have changed and have come one full circle back! News at my fingertips via twitter and facebook and weibo have informed me that despite K-pop taking a huge chunk out of our audience pie here in Singapore… it seems the S-wave is back! 《边缘父子》has brought about a furore of activity online and offline that circles around a group of up and coming Singaporean teens…
If it was ANY teen. I’d probably wouldn’t be blogging. I’d probably just be discussing about this… privately with my friends.
BUT! recently… our inbox have been flooded by comments on our youtube channel. Initially i thought… “hmm. Spambots.” And when I click left, right, up, down, centre… realised… we were getting lots of views because of a particular young man!
And it was embarrassing really, and a little self-pity set in. After working hard in this local scene and pursuing a dream that’s fraught with so many setbacks, it was a very humbling experience to realise this particular young man was doing so well, and in turn… actually helping us to promote the music we so passionately slogged over!
There was a little bit of reflection, alot of amazement(did you see the pictures of the crowd that swarmed the “边缘少年”s at Scape?!??), and finally… quite a big portion of appreciation and gratitude.
I think most of you would already know who I’m talking about. But to make sure you’ve got the right guy and we’re all headed in the same direction on this… here’s a picture I stole from his facebook!
His name is Ian Fang, and he was handpicked by our beloved friend/DJ/director Zhou Chong Qing to be my love interest/负心汉 in 插班生’s MV 《逞强》. Which explains why 《逞强》is enjoying a new lease of life in terms of view almost close to a year after our album was released! So… thanks Ian and your growing fanbase!
I remembered Ian telling me how much he loved movies and how for a period of time he watched movies non-stop just to learn and absorb from the actors and the screenplay. He speaks in a funny click-clack sorta way and he’s always adjusting his hair at every passing reflective surface. He’s a child at heart and has a very hearty laughter. Very easy going, and extremely supportive, standing by and giving me his signature wink while I was in the shower getting water in my eyes but hanging on to execute the right emotions in the only take we had. Always willing to learn and to try, picked up things really quick and and extremely natural actor… and a hardworking student too!
You know how sometimes you feel a little bias towards a pretty face? You’re a little unbalanced, feeling like opportunities they have are only there because of a good looking face? Well, I must say… there’s really nothing much to fault about this young man. A simple heart, a mature outlook to life and a readiness towards the art he believes in.
You don’t get many of such 20+ year olds these days!
《逞强》is even more memorable now especially since my 男主角 is now so 火红!
Tangs Ian, Tangs! (and THANK YOU chongqing, 你眼光真的很好！)
Our MV … 《逞强》
where “naughty girl 啊~” is heard… !