别的事就不用说，就说今天最让我感动，最让我心跳加速，还有最让我开心的。

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I Thank You for You.

AND Karen from Jeric Salon! Its been a humbling and amazing experience being sculpted under your magic hands. One of a few stylists who truly make me feel like I’m safe in their hands. I’m no fashionista and can sometimes be difficult to work with because when it comes to fashion, I’m not experimental… But having worked with Karen on three different occasions, all three times I was blind as a bat because I had to keep my specs off while she did her work. Each time I put my glasses back on, I’m amazed, I’m astounded, I’m surprised and I’m confident. Amazed that my hair can go in those directions, astounded with her skills and surprised by the ease at which I accept myself in the mirror hence making me feel confident. Thank you Karen, and especially how in the chaos of the final minutes leading up to the start of the show, you never forgot us 插班生 and kept keep a look out for us and keeping us in mind. Thank you for making us feel at home, at ease and valued. You made our day.

还是要幸福

”不孤独，有毛毛虫陪我。
这个，就只有我了。
好想回忆一些什么。
现在的心情。
如果能够写成一首那会更好。
但心情还是得抒发。“

13th sept 2011， 3.23am

不喜欢这种累到影响声音的状态，
但又很享受累到撑不住但发觉自己原来还可以继续的力量。
我想再累。再疯狂！

我真的是台上疯，台下静。
好奇怪。

我自己试着在了解自己。
好奇怪。

休息，是为了走更长远的路。
声音，你一定要乖。
古乃！

同学你好。

其实我有很多值得后悔的。为什么说…值得，后悔？

因为，这后悔是我现在很努力想要去追赶之前遗失的每一分，每一秒的源动力。

插班生带着自己专辑去台湾的时候，和很多在音乐领域里打滚了多年的朋友…听了我们的专辑都觉得quality 很好，音乐性很强…过后都会问：“你们会弹乐器吗？”

“哦，会是会…但不堪入耳啦。“

这是我的遗憾。我虽然算是一个late bloomer. 五年前才发现自己原来能够在歌唱这领域里做些什么…但一直就希望有人提拔，有人带领。

没有。

浪费了那么多青春！啊！

所以说，年轻人…不要太自大！不要以为时间还很多！要做的赶紧去做！人生是你的！学到的一些技术，才艺也都是你自己的！没人能拿走！如果觉得自己在某一方面很有天份，努力去着机会把它练成翔龙十八掌！

true story. I think I’d rock on the drums. But my mother never allowed me to go on the drum set unless I wore a skirt. I still got to drum away every week when I had the chance to in church, but I know if I had been more firm and knew better, if I had gone for drum lessons. I might be drumming for someone’s concert now. And that, would be da bomb man.

我的点是。my point is.

要努力，要付出，要相信。

我们不能够和别人比较，或怨家人不提拔我们…我们都是聪明人，要自己走出自己的路。

I don’t think that much, and I never ever plan my blog posts or the words here. That, isn’t always a good thing. As a semi-independent singer, I need to be smart, play the market, know the market, be good with public relations, suck up to the ones who have full pockets, because all these elements have to come together or good music will never happen. That’s the truth.

For every amazing successful voice on the acrylic cover(nowadays, cardboard seems to be the trend.) there is a team of “prostitutes” behind doing everything they can to put this person up there. And i don’t mean this in disrespect. My ex manager used to jokingly tell me all the time “为了你～我要去坐在人家的大腿liao 啦！”and I always respect her for that. Because … 换成是我坐，我想没有人会给我钱做音乐。

幕后团队好重要，风扇们的支持也是。

因为你喜欢，你就会推荐给你的朋友，朋友再推推推推，转转转转。所以再这里我祈祷我们插班生能够继续耕耘出更厉害的我们，风扇们永远青春有活力而且一定要相亲相爱！

很害羞。今天录了这首歌… 献给你们。:) 这首歌的作词作曲人超棒。他就是黄玠….

Over the past decade, the local television industry seemed to have lost its lustre… the internet came in, there was SCV, and then SCV provided demand television which basically means HK dramas at your fingertips… and then came the Hokkien dramas which took our little island by storm…

It’s been harder and harder to survive in this local television industry and local drama has had a few hits amongst the many as compared to years back when every drama seemed to leave a deep impression in our mind. (To date ”再见萤光蓝“ is still my no.1 and I think i’ve watched it thrice. When it was first aired, and then rushing home at 2.30pm after school to watch afternoon repeat telecasts.)

Fann Wong was my fvourite! I always tell my friends this and they either roll their eyes or exclaim “YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME!!!”

I was part of the FANNATIC fanclub which I know still exists till today! They used to call me up and tell me that I was one of the lucky 50 who had a chance to sit in the front at one of Fann Wong’s meet-and-greet sessions and I’d say I couldn’t go because my mum had such a tight reign on me… if i wanted to go, I’d have to lie. And honestly, I couldn’t lie SKILLFULLY to save a life, so no point trying really.

BUT! Goodness.

Times have changed and have come one full circle back! News at my fingertips via twitter and facebook and weibo have informed me that despite K-pop taking a huge chunk out of our audience pie here in Singapore… it seems the S-wave is back! 《边缘父子》has brought about a furore of activity online and offline that circles around a group of up and coming Singaporean teens…

If it was ANY teen. I’d probably wouldn’t be blogging. I’d probably just be discussing about this… privately with my friends.

BUT! recently… our inbox have been flooded by comments on our youtube channel. Initially i thought… “hmm. Spambots.” And when I click left, right, up, down, centre… realised… we were getting lots of views because of a particular young man!

And it was embarrassing really, and a little self-pity set in. After working hard in this local scene and pursuing a dream that’s fraught with so many setbacks, it was a very humbling experience to realise this particular young man was doing so well, and in turn… actually helping us to promote the music we so passionately slogged over!

There was a little bit of reflection, alot of amazement(did you see the pictures of the crowd that swarmed the “边缘少年”s at Scape?!??), and finally… quite a big portion of appreciation and gratitude.

I think most of you would already know who I’m talking about. But to make sure you’ve got the right guy and we’re all headed in the same direction on this… here’s a picture I stole from his facebook!

His name is Ian Fang, and he was handpicked by our beloved friend/DJ/director Zhou Chong Qing to be my love interest/负心汉 in 插班生’s MV 《逞强》. Which explains why 《逞强》is enjoying a new lease of life in terms of view almost close to a year after our album was released! So… thanks Ian and your growing fanbase!

I remembered Ian telling me how much he loved movies and how for a period of time he watched movies non-stop just to learn and absorb from the actors and the screenplay. He speaks in a funny click-clack sorta way and he’s always adjusting his hair at every passing reflective surface. He’s a child at heart and has a very hearty laughter. Very easy going, and extremely supportive, standing by and giving me his signature wink while I was in the shower getting water in my eyes but hanging on to execute the right emotions in the only take we had. Always willing to learn and to try, picked up things really quick and and extremely natural actor… and a hardworking student too!

You know how sometimes you feel a little bias towards a pretty face? You’re a little unbalanced, feeling like opportunities they have are only there because of a good looking face? Well, I must say… there’s really nothing much to fault about this young man. A simple heart, a mature outlook to life and a readiness towards the art he believes in.

You don’t get many of such 20+ year olds these days!

《逞强》is even more memorable now especially since my 男主角 is now so 火红!

Tangs Ian, Tangs! (and THANK YOU chongqing, 你眼光真的很好！)

Our MV … 《逞强》

where “naughty girl 啊~” is heard… !